I admit it...I was the weird lady at Target

Life is so busy with all these little ones.  My mind is often in 5 different places at one time.  I want to hear God in my day.  I want to listen to the Holy Spirit guide me.  I want to live in the spirit and not in the flesh. 

I want to...but I so often miss out.

I was checking out at Target the other day.  I only had my oldest two children with me.  My hubby was waiting in the car with the two littles.

As the young lady rang up my items, I suddenly saw her. 

I saw her.

I saw her sweet face as she talked with me.

I saw her arms.

I saw the scars from cutting. 

They looked like they were old wounds.

Then something welled up inside of me.

I felt the Lord compelling me to speak to her.

He wanted me to speak to her worth.

I felt sick to my stomach.

I tried to reason my way out.

She will think I am weird.

I don't want to embarrass her.

What do I say?

We were almost done.

The lady behind me was ready to check out.

I chickened out.

I walked away.

Then I stopped.

I looked back.

I tried to bargain with the Lord.

If no one else comes in her line then I will go.

A man got in line.

Okay, I am out.

I looked back up.

He was gone.

No excuses left.

I walked back to her.

I still had no idea what to say.

I put my hand on her shoulder and called her by name.

"I feel like the Lord wants me to tell you something before I leave." I told her.

"Okay," she said with a strange look on her face.

Then these words came out...

"You are precious in His sight.  He wants you to know that."

Then I walked away.

Shaking.

When I got in the car I told EJ what had just happened.  He prayed for her and I cried.

I have no idea what she thought.  I suppose that is none of my business.  I just need to be obedient.

Lord,
I pray you touch her. 
Touch her arms and heal her. 
Touch her heart and heal her. 
Make her your own. 
In Jesus Name,
Amen